The Weinstein revelations,, A larger Abusive relationship, like the “family” I’ve tried speaking about since the 70’s

More and more I hear stories and reports of abuse and people having the same experiences that I and many other vulnerable, innocent children do in their own homes.

 I’m writing these blogs and making ‎video blogs on my youtube channel, April Watters, because I could not speak out about these issues for most of my life. Or, if you spoke it, I was guilted, shamed further, I was told to just “get over it”.

I’m writing this blog because people who are even more vulnerable than those abused by Harvey Weinstein do not get the attention‎ they so desperately need and deserve. People, adults today and many children who have it worse than I did, I am speaking out for. Child abuse and dysfunction in the “home” has long been too normalized.

The abusive “family” has spread like the wild fires and nothing has been done for millions of the most vulnerable who have no way to speak out. They become part of the problem.

Imagine this; those who are meant to give the innocent the support and leverage they require are the very ones preying on them instead. What is that creating? Like Climate breakdown, an human environmental disaster has been created for decades and those who are meant to be the future are being enslaved by very sick people. It happens on all levels.

Like deforestation, we have De Humanization. A total enslavement of the most vulnerable instead of those who have the support to go up against abuse of power, the succumb to it instead.

This is an environmental disaster on epic proportions. The women who have been abused by Weinstein speak of needing the job and not reporting being raped by Weinstein. A larger Abusive “family” scenario. With so many people being born to “familiesl , “parents” who can’t raised and teach their children to have some leverage and to resist those in power rather than bowing and “needing” them nature and health are being totally destroyed.

There are NO real adults!! No REAL mature, responsible humans and only adult children and preditors.

In an interview on Democracy Now Tomi- Ann Roberts described her encounter with Weinstein over 30 yrs ago when she was 20 in 1984, same age as myself, and the fight, flight or freeze response that occurs when faced with an abusive situation and person. She spoke about the psychological exit stradegy of putting the fault on herself who was not ready or up to what Weinstein wanted her to do.

This is the same Debt Economy I speak about and try to teach about the abusive “family”. So to not “poke the bear” as Tomi-Ann put it, she put the blame on herself to make her exit. This is what automatically happens to children in many abusive siutaions, not all. They “need” the person in power so they go into Debt and make the abuse their fault and bail out the abuser. This is such an important point for people to understand. The same as a body going into shock, the blood is taken from the parts of the body that the body can survive without, limbs, extremities, and send it to the parts the body can’t survive without like the heart, brain, lungs.

Due to our Disaster Capitalism system, this way of “relating” will continue to become the norm and accelerate like the wild fires in California.

A child is trapped in the situation of abusive “parents” and can’t leave unless someone intervenes. If not, the child’s energy and psyche are “bled out” and the child repeatedly puts the abuser over themselves thereby, “funding” their own abuse. Without someone there for the vulnerable, they will bleed out completely and be left with no sense of self. There body and soul will be taken over and used completely by the abuser‎. This is exactly what those in “power” want.

Louise Godbold expressed her experiences of assault by Weinstein and how she didn’t say anything because she felt it would be “career suicide” since she was trying to get a start in the film industry.

I just want to stop here and again point out the feeling of being trapped with no choice but to feel one has to put up with abuse if you want to pursue ones “dream”. Those in power take advantage of the dreams, aspirations and out right desperation of those trying to do what is their right in life to do,

I have to point out how this happens in “homes” by abusive “parents” exactly the same way. Sick people get off on having power and control over the vulnerable and take total advantage of the dependence of a person. In fact, the more someone in a “power” position knows that a person is vulnerable and despearte, the more likely they are to abuse the situation and the person. And that makes children a prime target.

The family, even if parents are not abusive but, lack the ability ‎to give their child leverage because they don’t have any creates desperate people primed to be abused and taken advantage of by the system. The firewall of Family has been eroded.

Due to growing up in abuse at an early age I was aware and on the look out for abuse where ever I went. I expected it since I was used to it and no relative or neighbor taught me otherwise. I was on my own; hypervigilant.

Louise Godbold was asked why women of assault carry the shame of the abuser. She responded by siting our societal conditioning, parenting and of being compliant.

This is what happens in “families” also. Children are trained to carry the psych debt of guilt & shame that does not belong to them from the toxic emotions of “parents” who use their own children the same way Weinstein did. ‎It’s all part of our debtors prison system. The same reason the Banks get Bailed out and the public gets Sold Out. People are not taught to stand up to abusers but to take on and carry the debt. There would need to be someone there for the vulnerable to teach them to stand up and give the shame back to the abuser.

It’s the emotional level of Texaco dumping pollution in the Amazon or the BP Oil spill.

Louise Godbold sited the Adverse Child Experience study and states that abused and traumatized children are more likely to be victimized later in life.

Louise stated that victims carry the shame because there is no one countering it. There’s no one on the victims side. Something I’ve been saying for decades.

She goes onto say how family and friends, thinking they’re giving you good advice tell you, don’t rock the boat and don’t get involved when that’s the opposite of what the abused need. They need leverage and encouragement to speak and stand up. It’s basic physics. An object or person in motion stays in motion unless acted on by an outside source. Weinstein gets all the momentum and clearing of the pavement for his abusive actions while those engaging in Right action get friction. It needs to be turned the other way around. ‎That takes conscious effort and work.

Louise spoke again about fight, flight or freeze and how we need to educate about trauma. What fight,flight,freeze illustrates is the level of human Climate Breakdown we’ve advanced to similar to polar bears having to swim longer to find ice.

We can’t allow abuse to be normalized.

Louise Godbold spoke of the healthy pain and anger that comes from not being believed for over 2 decades. ‎How she would have loved for someone to tell her that she was acting bravely in speaking out rather than being told to sit down and shut up, not to make any waves.

Well, people need to understand, we need the kind of waves made by those standing up against abussers and Not the waves made By the abuser!

Why do so many people make those standing up against abuse wrong and the abusers actions go unchallenged? I’ve asked this question for decades. Those around me seem to have the attitude that not standing up is going to solve problems when all it does is increase them. How did people get so disoriented and lacking in courage?

Irin Carmon expressed how courageous the women were who spoke out. ‎She spoke about Ronin Farrow’s attempts at getting this stroy of Weinsteins abuse published. She said the standard of corraborating stories is so high that it ends up revictimizing the victims. We have to ask ourselves why? Who is setting the standard? The abusers that’s why.

Irin Carmon said how Weinstein “bought off people who were an impediment to him”‎. This is what $ does. Creates a false reality disconneced from the real one because so many people put fake $ over truth and what’s right. Fake $ is creating a human climate breakdown because it is at the expense of real justice. It’s not just the earth’s climate being destroyed.

Irin said how Weinstein attended the women’s march in Utah and showed how people like Weinstein can use issues to cloak their misdeeds. Hiding their abuses in actions contrary to who they really are.

This is why I’ve practiced and talk about mindfulness, meditation and yoga which is all about looking close, paying attention and which is all about incorporating in nature’s process rather than skipping over it which is exactly what the $ system doesn’t want. Taking the time to look is the enemy of this system.

So, watch out for people who claim to be your allies, is her point. The same point I’ve been making about the abusive “family” for decades.

Then the co host of Democracy Now, Naimeen Scheike‎ read something written by Weinsteins secratary about the unequal power of herself in age and position as Weinstein. He a “10 and herself a 0”.

Again I want to get people to think about what abused children go through with their own “parents”. We simply do not hear about it and not enough is being done to deal with abuse in any environment. If older people and people in the spotlight are experiencing such blatant abuses, imagine what‎ horrible abuses children go through and have no way to express? I encourage people to watch Conspiracy of Silence banned Documentary on youtube.

“It’s the very abuse of power” that Weinstein liked in these scenarios, not that he liked pretty girls, Carmon said.

She then spoke of the actress, Ambra Battilana Gutierrez, who wore a wire for the NYPD and returned to Weinstein’s place to gain evidence ‎of harassment and got it only for the “prosecution”, Cy Vance to not prosecute Weinstein and receive 10k a couple of days later.

They are speaking about the exact issues children deal with everyday with abusive “parents” and have NO power to do anything about it. They are ground up by this system which lowers the bar for everyone else. Like human soil erosion.

I’m still trying to recover from trauma to this day. It’s a crisis that there is NO safe place and real help for vulnerable people who have been abused to go to. This is Nothing other than a Health Crisis and Psychological Climate Breakdown! It’s No different than destroying the planet. Plain and simple. If it isn’t countered, we will destroy ourselves.


How "Parents" perpetuate Climate Crimes

DSC00246I’m writing again to connect the Micro to the Macro. To connect the unhealthy, abusive family and parenting to the larger system and world we have today. There is NO talk or mention that the “family” is the spreader of all the ignorance, abuse and debt. The so-called “family” or just pro creating is how the misery gets passed down, even by “well intentioned” parents. The family has been reduced to the transmitter of debt and destruction with nature being used against people.
In Paris after the COP21 ended, environmental activists & journalists held a “mock” trial against EXXON for Climate crimes in front of an audience. A tribunal of judges heard testimony from witnesses which included scientists, energy experts and residents of frontline communities who are threatened by climate change.
Acting as chief prosecutors, environmentalist Bill McKibben of and journalist Naomi Klein questioned witnesses.
“We call it the People’s Trial, there’s Nothing ‘mock’ about this. The stakes could not be higher”, said Naomi Klein. The environmental movement is having to step up because of the failure of politicians, the ‘mock’ trial is stepping in because the courts have also failed. Naomi believes the prosecution of EXXON will happen very soon. “Don’t think of this as a ‘mock’ trial but, as a preview of EXXON’S future”.
Then, Bill McKibben began calling witnesses. The first woman who stood up was from the Marshall Islands where the water level is rising. “We’re living in a lot of fear” , said Kathy Jetnil-Kijiner. “If we lose our land, we lose our identity as a people”. Bill McKibben asked how long people have been living on the Marshall Islands and Kathy replied, “Over 2000 years”. “The ocean has stayed at a level that made it possible to sustain life there”, said McKibben. Kathy then, spoke about an island that went under water in 10 years time. McKibben said, “so in the 25 years since EXXON knew about climate change there’s been remarkable change”.
The next witness was from a rein deer herding family from the Saami culture, Jannie Staffansson, telling the “court” how the rein deer cannot smell food under the ground due to the drastic changes in temperatures creating ice crusts on the snow leading them to starve to death.
“Arctic communities are Ground Zero for climate change”, said another witness from Arctic village Alaska. Asked by Naomi Klein is she was angry that EXXON saw ice melting as a profit making opportunity, her response was, “It makes me angry that they knew, my children are going to be devastated by climate change”.
Jason Box, climatologist was next on a geological survey of Greenland and Denmark. “EXXON is an example of a corporation that went rogue. They were doing the best science in the discipline then, defunded those programs and started to actively fund disinformation campaigns to perpetuate their profitability. Some of their own scientists are concluding failed agricultural systems; drought, sea level rise, chaotic systems. They Lied for short therm gain and we will be paying for that for decades to come”.
Naomi Klein asked Cindy Baxter of if Exxon used the same tactic as the Tobacco Industry to lessen facts about the harmful effects of cigarettes? “Absolutely” she said. “They spent $31 million from 1998-2014 funding climate denial campaigns run by think tanks and denying the climate science themselves”.
Naomi Klein said of EXXON’S CEO, Rex Tillerson, “People will adjust”. Ken Henshaw of Social Action Nigeria replied, “I really feel bad because it seems to me that they don’t take in to consideration what people are going through, the situation is becoming more and more dire”.
I wanted to interject here and point out the Total Dysfunction of this attitude by the Exxon CEO. “The people have always adjusted”. It’s like saying the victim has to adjust to the abuser. The people worldwide have to “adjust” to the Corporatocracy’s never ending Lust for Profit and desecration of people and the planet! This guy is NUTS! They don’t come any sicker.
“I’m really getting scared”, Ken Henshaw said about the life expectancy in Nigeria is between 43 & 46 because the water supply was being contaminated with Benzine.
Sandra Steingraber PhD biologist of Concerned Health professionals of NY and a specialist in Fracking was the next witness. She spoke about Exxon’s relationship to Fracking in the U.S. Exxon, “the worlds largest natural gas producer that extracts oil and gas via fracking All Over the World. More recently it’s gone after the shale oil in Argentina”. Naomi Klein asked Sandra to talk about the climate effects of Fracking. “Natural gas gets marketed as a ‘solution'”, said NK, “Is that your experience?” “Natural gas is a climate problem”, said Sandra Steingraber, “it’s a catastrophe for the climate. Exxon is complicit in promulgating the idea that natural gas is a more friendly fossil fuel than Oil, gas & coal”.
Sandra was asked by NK about being a mother and the protection of future generations from Climate change and what her reaction was to hearing about Exxon’s science on it since the 70’s. “I myself was studying CC as early as 1977. We in the scientific community have known of the reality of CC for a long time”.
This is the part I wanted to stress in this writing.
“As a mother I know the disinformation campaign by many but, most notably by Exxon makes it difficult for me to do my job as a mother”. Sandra specifically stresses the importance of parenting and how she’s being called upon to plan a future for our children to keep them safe from harm and CC makes that impossible. The Climate crisis is “Really a Parenting Crisis, it’s a Human Rights crisis”. She went on to say that for Exxon to deny CC that we’ve known about since the 1970’s is a “strike against parenting and human knowledge and scientific progress”.
This is where I will begin my plea again, about the abusive/dysfunctional family that I’ve been trying to since 1970. Not knowing I was the victim of CC back then but, knowing, however, feeling very un-mistakably, the effects of it. I have to write about this because if I don’t then, who will? When those who are supposed to be in charge of your care and health are doing the opposite when you’re a chid, then who do you turn to? When It’s parents who are the ones doing the harm and are emotional children themselves, that is an environmental, health disaster. Who is standing up for the most vulnerable when it goes in direct conflict with Corporate profit? “Parents” are literally forced to sell out the health of their children or stand up to the system. Most will not do that. The Corporations and gov literally ARE the Abusive Parent to the world. Who’s going to stand up to them?
The “family” system, at least the one I tried to grow up in and in many others also, was no different than any of the health issues all of the witnesses at the trial raised from the effects of Climate Change and Exxon, along with many other companies, who are after nothing more than profit by extracting resources from the earth and it’s people.

 Is it really a surprise that these companies deny the harm they cause to the earth and it’s people? The fact that they do their own investigation and scientific study and that an independent study isn’t done should be cause for concern. The idea that Exxon is going to police themselves is the same fox guarding the hen house we’ve heard many times.
 That parents are going to police themselves also is ludicrous. It’s physically impossible for “parents” to do a quality job as long as we live under Capitalism.
 It was clear to me since I was 6 in 1970 that I was being extracted. My health was being extracted.

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